Reality =)

A Bad Dream

2012-01-11T14:25:00.002+08:00

People are running through room to room, exit to exit...
I was in this dark room. What was left of the floor was just a thin trail of its material towards the exit. Beneath this floor or what of it's left was pitch dark. Nothing was seen at the bottom of it. People were struggling as they ran through it towards the exit.
Then, there was this scream. Someone behind me fell but she managed to catch hold of the edge. She was half crying, half screaming. She was screaming frantically, "HELP! Save ME!" while sobbing hard. It was a heart-wrenching scene.

I saw it. And I wanted to save her. But I didn't. Then I regretted it.
She was screaming loudly. I wanted to give my hand to her & pulled her up but I was worried about the unstable floor I was on. It felt as though it could collapse down anytime. I felt that if I gave her my hand, I will be falling down with her to nowhere. It's a situation of one or two would die, instead of one or both would survive. I hesitated and then, she fell. Her last grip failed her.. She fell down into the pitch darkness.

I was guilt-stricken. What came across my mind during that moment was if I survive, I can help more people than just the lady in front of me. If I helped her, I could have died with her. It was very selfish of me. I always thought that I would do my best to help people for the good. If this was a question given to me, I would have answered "Yes. I would help her." But I didn't. Just as I was remorseful of what happened, I cried and cried.

Then I woke up with tears on my pillow. It was a dream. A realistic bad dream. I felt that if I was met with such situation again, I would still be stunned. But I would still do my best to help the lady, even if it's at risk of my own life. For I don't want to live the rest of my life in regrets.

Current Revelation

2011-06-26T22:15:00.003+08:00

Left something in the past written in the gone rust blog I have.
It was difficult and I believe that things will just get better as I have overcome that difficulty of issue, not much things will be as difficult as the past events =)
All the Best to myself & Get well soon in terms of physical and emotional!

Two meanings in Latin

2011-04-27T21:44:00.006+08:00

Meaning of Mea culpa : My fault

Meaning of Carpe Diem: Seize the day

How to spot a liar

2011-04-27T21:42:00.001+08:00

How To Spot A Liar by Forensic Psychology

Reference: http://www.medpedia.com/news_analysis/292-Dare-To-Dream/entries/68296-Can-You-Detect-a-Liar

The quote of the day! =)

2011-01-02T00:17:00.001+08:00

I still live, I still think: I still have to live, for I still have to think.
Friedrich Nietzsche

2011 New Year Resolutions! =D

2011-01-02T00:02:00.002+08:00

Home's X'mas Decorations 2010! =)

2011-01-01T23:54:00.003+08:00

Melamine foam =D

2010-12-22T01:55:00.004+08:00

Image from: http://home.howstuffworks.com/magic-eraser1.htm

I just bought a melamine foam from Daiso $2 & was obsessed w it.

It cleaned amazingly =) The effect led me from cleaning my wallet (main purpose) to cleaning my windows (decor paint), table (paint), bag (marker stain), etc.
It will crumble after numerous usages like an eraser; maybe this is where its name, magic eraser, came from.

Its powerful effect even managed to scrape off the color of my metallic pen holder.

Okie.. Gotta admit it myself, this is random.. hahas but it really amazed me =)

Bullying

2010-09-26T01:10:00.004+08:00

“Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one's definition of your life, but define yourself.” Harvey S. Firestone

[extracted from: http://lrichter.tie.wikispaces.net/Bullying+Quotes]

I was once a victim from bullying in my primary school.
I don't have much friends in my primary school.
It was kind of dark period for me, lots of crying occur.

Although I was unhappy during the times, I know that their insults serve the only sole purpose:
To diminish my self in order to boost themselves; To gain an upper hand on me.

It was not like I didn't seek help. I did. But, I was ignored from teachers and parents. Parents were too busy to contact school. A teacher just forgot about the incidents, another told me that one of my bullies has psychological problem and asked me to endure. So, I endured my 6 years of bullying. I tried to retaliate in some verbal abuses but it makes matter more worse.

It did lower my self-esteem and made me unwilling to talk to people for I was afraid that I may be bullied by others. I remembered I tried to get away from the bullies to have time alone for myself during recess by going to the school library and engrossed myself in books to forget about the bullying and to recharge myself to continue my struggle.

I still remember most of the bullying were directed to my academic results. A boy who was seated next to me loved to compare my results with his. Once, he scored a mark higher than me, he made a big fuss. "Na ni na ni poo poo! I got a mark higher than you! You are stupid." This was what he would continue saying throughout the day. It was annoying, but most of the times when I won over his marks, he would not say anything and kept quiet the whole day.

Many did worst, like trying to copy my answers. Once, my paper was snatched away from my desk during an examination. It was horrifying. The bully that has psychological problem loved to hit, insult and threaten me. I kept telling myself that I should endure as she was not well. Another bully loved to destroy my things. The funniest bully is one that loved to insult me till I cried then afraid of my crying, quickly passed me some tissue and forced me to play "country erasers" with him during lessons to divert my crying.

I guess the bullying history in my past did make an impact in my life. I somehow cringed of making friends at the time as I was afraid of being hurt. I kept my inner self to myself. And, I really detest to do something beyond the moral values. I figured if I endured, it sorts of died off slowly but if I retaliated, it would get worse since there were no interventions from my parents and teachers. I realized I am the only one who can help myself.

My secondary school is a turning point where I made great friends and looked forward to school everyday. I really appreciate that. I enjoyed being in their company, talking to them being there for them and going through with them during hard times. It really did open myself out to them but not to all. When someone said he liked me during my secondary school times, first thought that came out to my mind was, "This must be a joke. They are just joking with me. How can it be? I got scoliosis, having facial problems... etc. It can't be." So without any hesitation, I just ran away from it by avoiding meeting that person and erasing a confession on my table from someone. I didn't realize these actions might really hurt someone and I was really sorry about it afterwards.

Then, here comes my jc life where I expose myself to the public more in one of my ccas. I had to contact more with the public by raising public awareness of crime and conduct house visits. It was my responsibility, so I just took in my stride and was actually happy doing it to interact with people. Also, I was more than willing to help people in need when they were injured. I love to help people a lot if it's within my mean and not beyond moral rights. However, still, I cringed talking to some. Sometimes, I just simply had no idea what to talk into a conversation. But once, I know someone well enough, there will be non-stopping talking.

I am someone who trust my friends completely and will be upset when my trust is being betrayed. I guess bullying did impact me a lot. It actually made me afraid of making friends. I am actually still afraid of making friends with the opposite sex around my age and I really don't know how to interact with them. I had a crush on someone during my primary school times and whenever I saw him outside of school coincidentally, I would just avoid him. I was afraid of my own feelings.

I always felt that my personality had a great change after a childhood incident and bullying. Actually, I was more outspoken of my thoughts before all that had happened. Sometimes, in primary school, I will just speak out my views during lessons. Even though I had improved but still, facing my relatives who had the construct of me being quiet, reserved, studious and shy. I tend to behave as they expected, as I don't want to shock/oppose their thinkings.

Also, I tend to develop this annoying "skill" that I can switch off recognizing background voices and faces. I don't know why I can stare right into a familiar face for >5seconds and still can't recognize her/him. Sometimes, after 10 seconds then it occurs to me, I know that face! And, by then, that person will be gone. Misunderstandings may occur without my own knowledge. One can even smile at me, calls out my name but still, I can't see or hear them sometimes and I am sorry for that.

The main purpose of typing the post is to let myself to know myself better and to untie a knot in my heart. I will try my best to help myself =) First, stop avoiding eye contact and smile at familiar faces. Having not nice smiles beats having no smile at all. This may sound easy to you but it's a huge step for me as I'd been avoiding faces and eye contacts from acquaintances who I never spoke to unconsciously for some years. It had become a bad habit. It's time to grow out of it and improve myself. Jia You, Sabina! =) I will support U, that is myself! =D

Friends =)

2010-09-23T20:33:00.004+08:00

Here are some pictures I found regards of friends via google:

I totally agree =)
Although we don't always see friends but they are always there..
Just a simple call or msg from them will let u know that u r not forgotten....

Love this quote too..
I may not be the perfect friend but I will try my best to help friends if it's within my limits and moral values =)

Last but nt least. I am glad for being friends with my friends! =D

My Personality Type: The Harmony-Seeking Idealist

2010-09-05T22:57:00.000+08:00

My Personality Type: The Harmony-Seeking Idealist

You're Beautiful Korean Drama

2010-08-25T02:25:00.008+08:00

I just watched a korean drama called "You're Beautiful"
I like the songs there.
Here is one of the songs (What Should I do) which was sung in 2 versions by Park Da Ye & Jung Geuk Sung

This is the version by Park Da Ye:

Here is the version by Jang Geuk Sung:

Here is another song =) "Still (As Ever)"

This is another song, My heart is cursing:

Love this song, Without Words

Here is another song, I am a Fool

Another song, Lovely Day

This song is called Promise

Another song called Goodbye

Gosh.. I just realised tt the drama used a lot of songs and they are nice =D
Like de drama & its songs!

It had been a Great Bday! =D

2010-08-25T02:08:00.002+08:00

Thanks all who had wished me birthday wishes & accompany me on my bday =D
I feel blessed to have friends, family celebrating bday =DD
Had swensen's today with uni friends =D
I am really glad to know them as friends!
Hope our friendships last =))
Have 2 cardigans, 2 hairbands from them..

Really happy to have them as my present..

Bought 2 jackets, a cute & nt expensive earpiece today =D
Met sh for dinner

Had hong kong food =D quite nice..

Got really nice chocolates frm sh =D love chocs!

Chat for a while

Went home to cut cake w my family! =D
Ate KFC

I am FULL & HAPPY today! =DD
Thanks everyone for making this day happy for me..
It had really been a HAPPY B'day! =DD

Early Birthday Celebration =)

2010-08-11T20:16:00.004+08:00

Yesterday, anna, sk & jun came over to my house to play board games...
Unexpectedly, they bought a birthday cake up =)

(extracted frm http://www.fourleaves.com.sg/webtop/cakes/index2679.html?page=1)

It was strawberry shortcake from four leaves....
Quite nice!! The fresh cream was delicious! =)
I was quite surprised by the appearance of de cake initially....

Then, we went on playing board games.

After that, it was cake-eating time w b'day song singing..
I am really glad tt after 7 yrs, we are still frenz..
Friends Forever!

Then, I found my present on the book shelf placed by them..

It was a book from Jodi Picoult, House Rules =)

Jun tried to act it was all along on the book shelf..
Hahas =D Thanks for the present! I like it!

We ended up playing mahjong,

And had ajisen ramen for dinner..

Ending with a chat w sk & anna in her car..

THANKS, anna, jun & sk for making yesterday happy & fun! =))

I was a "somebody" for a moment =)

2010-08-10T01:01:00.004+08:00

I was waiting for the LRT to arrive yesterday...

I was amongst the crowd who were waiting for the LRT too...

Just then, the LRT arrived....

People were rushing out and in....

There was this little girl kept pushing me....

In de end, I let her in first....

And, just then, the LRT's doors were closing...

"Dong", I was hit by the closing door...

The LRT speakers sounded, "Somebody has interfered with the closing door...."

Thinking of which, the "somebody" referred by the system was me...

Hahas =D sort of made me wanted to laugh...

Ok... This is lame =DDD

Fence

2010-08-10T00:52:00.003+08:00

Fences...

Are they there to keep people out or to protect the fence owner from others?

Both of them could be the same....

Fences do minimize contact btw de fence owner & other people...

Get It Over

2010-07-11T14:19:00.004+08:00

Get it Over, Man!

" I'm already getting it over but the other party is still harping over this issue.
From the moment of the msgs I sent, I'm already getting the issue over.
Actually, at that moment, I wasn't angry at all.
I was having the "get this over and done with" attitude.
So, I had no idea why the other party harping on it and blaming me for her actions after the clarification.
After all, I don't control anyone but myself.
Similiar, no one can control you except yourself for your actions.
You have to be compliance before you follow instructions & it all alongs you that control your actions.
I only asked a simple request to leave me alone; I didnt ask "you" to leave the clique and later got blamed by "you" that I left "you" no choice but to leave the clique. My way of handling sucks? Your way of handling sucks even more.

Why don't you just let it go? Live a new life?

Oh well, why should I even bother with your nonsense when I dont even know you?

You are just a stranger to me now =) "

These were what I thought on that day when I realised that stranger of mine had not really realised her own mistakes and even pushing the blames to me.
After that day, I deleted all her contacts.
What I can say now is I am really glad she is totally out of my life =)

Pixie Lott - 'Cry Me Out' (Official Video)

2010-07-11T13:56:00.000+08:00

Pixie Lott - Cry Me Out

2010-07-11T13:45:00.003+08:00

I got your emails
You just don’t get females
Now, do you?
What’s in my heart
Is not in your head
Anyway..

Mate, you’re too late
And you weren’t worth the wait
Now, were you?
It’s out of my hands
Since you blew your last chance
When you played me

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that
Baby, there’s no way back
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

When I found out
How you messed me about
I was broken (heartbroken)
Back then I believed you
Now, I don’t need you
No more

The pic on your phone
Proves you weren’t alone
She was with you, yeah
Now, I couldn’t care
About who, what or where
We’re through

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that
Baby, there’s no way back
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

Gonna have to cry me out
Gonna have to cry me out
Boy, there ain’t no doubt
Gonna have to cry me out

Won’t hurt a little bit
Boy, better get used to it
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

You'll Have to cry me out
You'll Have to cry me out

Songwriters: Campsie, Colin; Hauge, Mads; Lott, Victoria Louise; Thornalley, Phil
Cry Me Out lyrics © Dalmation Songs; Sony/atv Music Publishing Uk Ltd; Universal Music Publ. Mgb Ltd.

Free?

2010-07-04T03:09:00.002+08:00

What is really determined by freedom?

Some people are physically unrestrained, yet they are bounded by an emotional lock...

Whereas some others are physically restrained, yet they are free from the emotional lock...

Whether you are unhappy or happy really subjective; depends on your view....

Dislike someone is actually very tiring. I am speaking from my experience...

This is also why I try not to dislike anyone...

Yet, I can't bring myself to like my ex-friends...

Instead, I will distance from them to remain distant in order to protect myself...

As I said, happiness is subjective...

I am happy for the things as now =D

Trust

2010-06-26T00:08:00.006+08:00

Once a trust is gone, it will not be back soon…

The inner voice in my heart is persuading me to Forgive and Forget…

But yet, this isn’t a easy task as that wasn’t a trivial matter…

What I really did wrong was to trust the wrong person…

If I could choose again, I wish I do not know her…

Or maybe in the beginning, I do not know her at all….

Yesterday & Today

2010-06-13T01:17:00.004+08:00

Yesterday was another series of events =)

After school, I went home and was tired from the previous day's preparation for an exam..

After my dinner, I went to de chalet to meet my JC classmates... watched bowling, drank margarita while playing de tapping games taught by zh =) , played monopoly cards, poker and watched the world cup with some of them..

Its been long since I saw my ex-classmates; glad to see them well =D
In the end, I stayed over night 'cos I did not want to go home late and disturb my family. After watching the match, its ard 4am, then yh,wq n me, slept on de sofa for a while till ard 6am and we left to catch the early bus home =)

I reached home at ard 7am and felt tired. After cleaning up, I went to sleep till 11am, ate my breakfast, then watched a tv show, ate lunch and went back to hit the sack and woke up at ard 5pm.. watched tv, and again ate my meal.. watched tv again.. Wow.. I just realised I'd been an authetic couch potato for a day!!!!

Hahas.. then I went out with my family for our weekly supper haunts... Initially, we wanted to go wen de shi to eat the dian xin and porridges there but due to the lack of parking lots, we went to swee choon to eat and ordered our usual xiao long baos, shao xin wine chicken and many others =D It was nice!~

=D I'm loving my life more..

2010-05-13T00:02:00.004+08:00

Time really flies...

Another semester had passed and soon, I will be starting another in few days..
This semester was more dreadful than the previous but I am glad that I had overcomed it =) I was disappointed in "one" who had let down my trust; that matter had indeed hurt me deeply as I let my future education placed as a stake for believing the "one". I don't confront this out to the "one" as I do not wish to embarrass/upset her and to leave myself a tinge of hope that what she told me is the sole truth and to hope for her to turn for the better.

Once bitten, Twice shy. It seems that this doesn't apply to me; this leads me thinks of the "another" who had let me down umpteen times in my alma mater. I believe people too easily; I hate myself for this.

Lessons learnt: I really have to learn to protect myself because I want to survive happily in this society by deterring conspiracy =) Further down the road of life, with more practices, I believe my self-protection skills will enhance. If ever I fail again, I just had to pull myself up like this issue and treat it as a bitter moment in my life. I guess this is where the old saying, "Life has its sour, sweet, bitter, spicy moments", comes in. Life will be boring with only one taste/feeling. I hope to have my life with multi-flavours but not too much of sadness.

I'm really loving my life 'cos I had found my goals =D
One thing for sure, I am truly more happier than I am in JC times.

'Cos I had found a great bunch of friends in my academic life and my goals, just like my sec. sch times =) I am HAPPY!

For this past month, I feel that little things in life can lead to bigger events =)
I had experienced little coincidences that lead me to enjoy more moments of life. Like, meeting da jie 'cos she passed by lot one that leads to going for the MayDay Concert at Padang and random messages by wz leads to going for a Piano recital with her at Arts House, due to, coincidentally, her friend who was going to accompany her being unwell that day before the recital...

The music for both events were GreaT =) I love them a lot! Had not been to a Rock concert and Piano recital before. These had made beautiful parts in my memory =)

Point made: Don't miss out small things in life, for them can lead to greater moments for one to keep as a set of beautiful memory.

Today's beautiful moments are tomorrow's beautiful memories.
from: http://lifewords.ca/shop/classic-quotes/1702---todays-beautiful-moments-are-tomorrows-beautiful-memories-/

2010-03-03T21:08:00.005+08:00

evol eurt yllaer ereht si
ti tba kniht ot erad nuw i
evol ni llaf ot elba eb nuw i kniht i yhw tt
em sa ega emas eht dra syug ot klat ot drah ti dnif i dna
sseug i secneirepxe dab
(rgb) evol si tahw
erofeb ti ecneirepxe yllaer ndid i sa wonk nuw i
em ot edam snoissefnoc lla tcejer i rehtar
lamron neve ro dab i m rednow i semitemos
efil ym ni ti ecneirepxe neve nuw i sseug i

Cos I'm not normal..
Hahas =)

2010-03-03T20:38:00.002+08:00

Time flies!

BOOM! & Here am I in 2010! xD

Not being what I used to expect myself to be, but still I am grateful & satisfied as I still on my goal of being someone useful~

But recently, some stuffs make me ponder real hard...

And I shouldn even bother to think about it...

I will leave it to the hands of future or fate =)

What matters most to me now is still academics..

No distractions!~ Shoo! I muz be like last sem. play lesser games...

I feel like I am addicted to fb games.. & This is NO good!

Hahas.. I am applying the theory of "I" & Looking-Glass Self now..

xD I will improve in time! I believe!

I believe I can fly! I believe I can touch the sky! I think abt it everyday! Spread my wings & Fly away! Wooo~ Woo~ hahas...

Love is in de air!~ I love the times when ppl give up seats for those in need & try to squeeze themselves to make space for others to get into de trains! xD dun cha?

Valentine's Day =)

2010-02-19T16:07:00.006+08:00

Valentine's Day

Watched this yst with yuhui & liyana =)
It has many good actors =) but de story plot is easily predictable..
There are also many sub-stories, thus the plot do not have a main focus and lesser climaxes..
But I enjoyed watching de movie =)

Here is de trailer:

This year valentine's day falls on lunar new year =D
I received a rose from celine for this yr valentine=) (2nd rose in my life)
but it had withered away after family trip to malaysia =S

Here are de only 2 photos I taken with celine's rose:

=) =) =) =) =) =) =) =)

The Lovely Bones

2010-01-20T22:08:00.003+08:00

I want to watch it!!! =)
I remember reading this book some time ago and it was great! I love it!
But I forgot its title.. Its introduction leaves an impact on me!
It is about a girl named Salmon being murdered and told the story in her perspective in heaven after her death.
I just saw its trailer on tv and I finally remember the title of this book =D
The movie is different from what I imagined when reading it BUT I will definately watch it =) I think I will watch it even if there is no one accompanying me..
Love it! Love it! Love it! Love it! Love it! =D hahas...

HAPPY 2010! =D

2010-01-01T13:00:00.005+08:00

Welcome to YEAR 2010! =)

Its a New Year, a New Beginning!~
This yr marks the 2nd decade of my existence.
My New Year Resolution is to maintain a certain level of consistency in myself and to consistently finding goals to achieve. This includes my academics, family, friends, physical, mentality and inner self.

I will try to set small steps to my goals and to achieve my final goals which are ever-changing.
All the Best to me & everyone!~
Once again, HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! =)
Try and Enjoy this Year!

Ho ho ho~ Its a motivated hols! =)

2009-12-13T04:16:00.009+08:00

Hols!
Season of Joy! =D
Exams are over!
A semester had passed! Whoo!
One more step closer to my goal!
I feel motivated to learn japanese and read some novels this hols~
I need to find some channels to earn bucks too!
=D So much to do! yet I feel happy to having things to do.
Its quite a surprise I did not touch TV today!
Miracle! hahas.. instead, I touch my lappie..
No.. I am nt molesting U, lappie!
U r mine, so it doesn't matter! =D
Woots! Maybe I will catch some dramas this hols!
La La La La LA La LA la LA LA LA la LA la LA la La!
Ho ho ho! Early Merry X'mas! =D

May all have a lovely christmas!! =D

Exams!!!

2009-12-07T22:27:00.001+08:00

Scared!!!!
JIA YOU!!!
Dont just say, do it!

School starts =)

2009-09-01T17:24:00.004+08:00

School starts..
Time flies...
Its been so long since I carry a heavy backpack..
Hahas.. Got to study hard le.. Got quizzes every wek & Hw..
Wow.. hahas today went for theory for music lecture..
Kinda fun =D reminds me of my kindergarden times doin theory piano lesson..
Hahas.. But currently cant find 2nd hand book for music..
Its really ex to buy it first hand.. $70+ =X
Oh well.. Hmm.. goin to tuition to teach p3 n 4 hw later..
Hahas =) Gd news is I dun need to teach de P6 le..
'cos he says he dun wan tuition then his ma allowed him to nt to hav tuition..
Oh well.. not my business le.. He dun wan work hard.. Nth tt I can say to help him..
Bad news is I dun get paid for my previous tuition w/ him =X cos didn complete the mth.. But I am just glad tt I dun need to worry over it anymore =)
Hmm.. got hw lik create a communication blog & do a nice, funny introduction video with grp members for communication.
Random picked by instructor to be grouped..
Hope everything turns well for the video.. =)

Gggggrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2009-08-21T12:29:00.000+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need a channel to vent my frustrations!!!
WOW~! What a lousy tutor I am!
AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Cant my tutee be not so rebellious?!
His PSLE coming.. yet WOW! His basics is like....!!!
Wow! And he's nt worried And LAZY!!!
Ok.. HOW CAn I EVEN HELP HIM WHEN HE'S NOT MAKIN AN EFFORT?!
Sorry.. I had to admit its tough... <2 mths, with tutee poor results & effort..
I hav no confidence he can even scrape pass...
I wanted to help him but he like dun care dun care type..
I am NO superperson who can just use <2 mths to help him to score well..
I wonder how his ex tutors taught him!
His assessments that tutors bought are lik almost EMpty?
He has no much respect to his mother...
What happened to him?
I wan to know and help
But I just got this assignment..
Its really beyond my capabilities to push him to good results with such attitude...
A BIG problem!!! AHHH!!
OThers assignments are tough as well but I hav confidence to help them.. but this is like I cant see the results of helping as it is really out of time..

Take it as experiences, my ma said...
Yes.. I just started tuitoring and its like all tough assignments?
No.. I wun quit of course just because of such tough stuffs.. I'll hang on..
And make the best out of it.. I will try my best..
I have been through theses times before as a tutee during pri times..
Know how my tutors work.. I gonna do my best to help them..

Gggggrrrrrr!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feeling much better...
Next tues going to hav my orientation..
AHHHH!!! I am such an nuisance, right?
Sorry I need to vent this out..
If nt, I might turn into a mad tutor..
kidding =)yes.. feeling much better..
Thanks, blog =D

Excited... AFraid?

2009-08-17T00:08:00.001+08:00

Wonder how tml turn up..
Tml will be de first time for me to tutor..
Although de tutee is a k2..
But still.. I am nervous>>???
What should I teach tml?
For this, I specially go to popular to check up k2 assessments..
Took up tuition to relieve family burden..
Although its nt a lot of money, I need it for my study fee..
I am a very very very new on this..
Hope everything turn up fine..
The tues helping de tutee siblings with their hw only.
Fee nt high, de centre asks me only guide their hw, dun teach sch stuffs..
Acceptable.. but dun know how it will turn out..

A NICE Song =D
Love this song when I was a kid =D

Chapter 3: Big Decisions

2009-07-21T23:07:00.001+08:00

I love to study pyschology...
Given a chance to study it..
But now my beliefs are wavering..
I wonder if my interests & passion stand to last...
I am sure this is nt an impulse or an influence by peers for me..
BUT:
With incredible HIGH course fee to pay..
With HigH Loan to repay after graduating..
With extreme low career prospects in Singapore...
Not to mention its estimate pay..
Its like so hard for me..
Unless I planning to work overseas..
BIG, HARD DECISION =/
Guess that is a part of growing up..

edited: Not low career prospects =D
It have wide range of jobs to chose from!
I love it! =D this is what I want! To involve a career with my passion! =D
LOve Love Love it! =D

I'll never fall in love again=) nice old song

2009-07-14T01:01:00.005+08:00

Dionne Warwick Version:

Deacon Blue Version:

Lyrics:

What do you get when you fall in love?
A guy with a pin to burst your bubble
That's what you get for all your trouble.
I'll never fall in love again.
I'll never fall in love again.

What do you get when you kiss a guy?
You get enough germs to catch pneumonia.
After you do, he'll never phone you.
I'll never fall in love again.
I'll never fall in love again.

Don't tell me what is all about,
'Cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out,
Out of those chains, those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you

What do you get when you fall in love?
You get enough tears to fill an ocean
That's what you get for your devotion.
I'll never fall in love again.
I'll never fall in love again.

What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow.
So, for at least until tomorrow,
I'll never fall in love again!
I'll never fall in love again!

Don't tell me what it's all about
`Cause I've been there and I'm glad I'm out
Out of those chains, those chains that bind you
That is why I'm here to remind you. (here to mind you) 3x
What do you get when you fall in love?
You only get lies and pain and sorrow
So, for at least, until tomorrow
I'll never fall in love again
Oh, I'll never fall in love again

Chapter 2: Trying to understand myself

2009-06-28T21:58:00.003+08:00

Understanding myself is sth I been avoiding after that childhood incident...
Ever since then, I found myself to be more introvert, scared of everything and anything..
Even walking in a crowd used to creep me up leaving me in cold sweats...
Its only till going to secondary school that opens up what is really insides of me to my friends..
And I am really grateful for that...
What I behave/do in front of friends still surprises me, as it made me really wonder, is this personality me..
And the introvert qualities had been with me for a decade, till I can't distinguish whether is it born in me, or happen after that incident..
Its like I had two personalities, one is for most people and a tiny part that will only come out for friends..
Sometimes, I even adored myself that even I am hurting inside, I can still console others and smiled to others..
Even I am tired, I can stil drag myself out...
Even I am tired, I still want to do sth for frenz..
And I hate to let anyone see me cry even if I cried in public..
Thanks for my eyes which are deceiving at times when I cried, I manage to deceive ppl tt I am nt crying..
I love to be alone at times for reading, internet-ing and be with frenz for gathering, watching movies, singing, window/shopping...
I love to be responsible, but I dun like to assume responsibility but once I assume responsiblity I will be responsible for the things I assumed responsible for.

This list will go on and on and on..
And maybe even edited, because ppl do change due to different situations and how one reacts to the situations, that what determines their personalities...
That's what makes people special and different from others as different people experience different background and situations..
=) But I believe the heart insides of everyone will remain unchange=)

CHAPTER 1: CHANGING JOB

2009-05-16T00:06:00.004+08:00

Things had changed too fast..

The day before I was just fretting over my driving fees costs, and then after answering a call that night, I got an job offer, then I got the idea of changing the job, as I cant endure anymore of the heavy exploitation. I talked about the job offer to my aunt, and the next day I go to the agency sign contract, and went to work the last day. The very next day, which is yst, I reported my first day of work at cck polyclinic =D
There's a partner with me doing the same task, which is just scanning barcode of ppl and directs ppl, quite simple. Everyone there are friendly and nice =) Liyana & Shi Ting are thr too~
Its less tiring compared to the previous job and I wondered why. Hahas =)
After the first day of work I went for driving=)

Today's the 2nd day, & some joke happened today. My scanning laptop just shut down on its own, then I went to the supervisor thr to tell him, but I forgot his surname =X So I called him by his name, v informal =X & technician came, he checked but it still don't work.
Then another shock appeared, the other laptop also shut down on its own...
Again, me & my new colleague go & inform the supervisor...
When we returned, the laptop can work! Funny? Cos we never open the main power switch to charge the laptops... =.=''
Since my laptop with the technician, I go help ppl fill in their forms..
Lunch was another joke.. O well, no wonder this is my life..
I had received a rejection letter frm smu, which is kind of expected with my lousy grades I cant even qualified for an interview, even the letter lik sort of scorned at me, with this phrase,
" ... smu is highly selective of their students..." , or perhaps I am too sensitive.
Looking for sim courses now, but found out most of the application (Business) closes today, 15May for the nearest intake, which is another joke cracked on me =X
I should hav be more conscious with the dates.
Sigh..
There's bound to be a way somewhr, right?
Regrets really fill my heart to the brim...

不要小看你自己，因为人有无限的可能。

2009-05-11T10:39:00.002+08:00

An important quote for me =D

Don't underestimate yourself, because everyone have boundless potential =)

不要小看你自己，因为人有无限的可能。

This string of words are v meaningful, it had helped my father a lot in his previous career...
When everyone looks down on him to open bakery shop, he never gives up & cont' to strive on..
He can work without sleep for 3 days jus to bake cakes to meet demands of people...
Hahas... all theses are known during yst mother's day while we are celebrating with a cake=)
Ma even says during festive seasons, last time 1day can earn 10k..(me & bro cant believe)
but now, times changed, de industry is gettin harder to do..
Sigh.. 往事只能回味。 The past can only be reminisced.
Hahas.. =D Yst we celebrated mother's day by goin to nihon mura, we treat ma to dinner=D
Pa didnt come along cos of the need of tending medical hall..
Ate quite a lot=D love de shitake a lot=D

Gonna rush up de website.. its tough doin with only my power...
Hundreds of photos, photoshopping...
& I am a noobie in such stuffs..
Everything frm scratch starts, learn flash, dreamweaver, fireworks, illustrator on my own....
No one can help, so i depends on myself =)

No university letter yet... If worst come to worst, I will go sim 2nd intake..
If Worst come to more worst, I retake than go uni.. at least I learnin, recappin back the same stuffs..

ITs OKay to be alone sometimes for a while =)

Sincerity

2009-04-18T19:42:00.002+08:00

If everything we do, we do with perservance & sincerity, would it be great? =)
Had a great day today, thanks to xiao gu ma =D
She bought me back to chinatown temple to pray=)
& We ate durians!!~ ate chicken porridge with yu sheng & vegs
Nice! & drank soya milk..
I am really glad that to have her as my aunt & other aunts as my aunts & uncles & cousins too =)
If nt, I wun be here typing this post..

Sorry sk, i shocked u by my previous post, thanks a lot for caring me... arigato=)
hahas, i really forgotten what happened yst.. i even woke up today wonderin why i had puffy eyes, totally forgotten tt i cried=) i wun rmb unhappy stuffs for a day, unless they hav extremely big impact on me

YaY!~

2009-04-12T19:50:00.002+08:00

hahas.. Finally its not pain anymore!!~
& no need for operation to remove it=D
& its straight!!~ Yahhhoooo!~
wisdom tooth is fine, same goes to my 2 other wisdom teeth=)
wonder why they wan to grow out at de same time..

Tomoro goin back to work le...
sigh.. have to face customers le =X
I better finish doing website by this month
& try go to other places to search for part time jobs...
need $$$ for driving lessons
& plan goin taiwan with sh before uni.. tts hard =X
see how.. dun wan to break promise...

祸不单行

2009-04-09T19:27:00.002+08:00

Toothache + headache caused by tooth + cold + food poisoning..
hahas.. hope suayness get away from me..!!!
Byebyebyebyebye!!!~ suay-ness
=D

Sore-ing

2009-04-06T00:53:00.004+08:00

Having swollen left cheek, the pain is continuously irritating me =X
Every bite I took, an acute pain will arise..
Every smile I smile, a pain obstacle will be there =X
wisdom tooth, oh wisdom tooth, aren't u supposed to give me wisdom?
why are you giving me such agony.... Sigh...
Ma said muz wait till de swelling resides & pain disappear then go extract it out..
wonder when will it end, ate medicine for a day, swelling does reside but the extent is minimal...
Left cheek & areas of teeth behind & below jaw are pain-ing...
cant sleep =X tml goin aunt office work again...
Pain!! =X

Feeling alone in a hostile world , why am I always de one talkin/typing a lot, & others jus reply 1 or 2 or few words?
I am tired of it, really.... not even one bothers to talk to me now... except for my siblings..

Grandparents

2009-03-26T16:43:00.004+08:00

Anyone can have an influence on someone, it could even be a stranger who has done things out of kindness, and the extent of influence on someone can be small or large. To me, the person who has the greatest influence on me is my grandfather. He was from Shanghai, China.

From young, he knew his responsibility to support his family, he went through arduous journey, left his family and went to Malaysia to work. When WWII occurs, he went to Batam to work and hide in rubber plantations. Life was tough, but he did not give up and often sent money back to china. After WWII, he emigrates to Singapore and using his savings, he did furnitures and start a family, gradually, his business began to boom, using his hard earned money, he bought more machines, however, one night with a big fire, everything was ruined.

His hard work had came to a null, and he had to sell away his big house with tenants in order to feed his family. But, he never gives up. Led by his friend, he went to Thailand to venture but he got cheated by his friend, all of his money that was left, was gone. He was once again left with nothing in a foreign land. But again, he did not give up. He did not want to disappoint his family did not tell them about it. He worked, sent back his wages, keeping little for himself, saving for air ticket back.

After numerous months, he went back to Singapore and with his children understanding the situation, they went to work helping to alleviate the family burden and my grandparents began to work as food hawkers and afterwards, as their age grows older, they retired. But, my grandfather still continues his daily routine of reading newspapers and talking about current affairs.

He and my grandma teach me morals and took care of me. I admired his perseverance and “never say die” attitude, to me, my grandparents are the greatest as they taught me a lot and took care for me when I was young. This gratitude is hard to repay in my lifetime and with their demises, had taken a big blow on me. As I know, I will never get to repay them, and this dream will never be fulfilled. Time had passed,
I nearly forgot this daily saying of my grandma, “今日事今日毕”.

I was typing for ntu essay but I had overtype and kind of 写离题 .
But nevertheless, this is the feeling I feel for my grandparents....
So I post it here.. Missing them badly...
My grandma food is the BesT! =D
Love them always!

Carpe diem

2009-03-23T18:35:00.002+08:00

Seize the day!~
=DD
YAY!~ I learnt a lot today...
1st, I had my 1st driving practical in de morning...
Happy that I drove quite smoothly but got stalled engine 3 times cos of releasing the crutch pedal too fast..
2nd, I learnt to practise more for my arts, because it really deterioted =X
3rd, I learnt frm liyana hot to copy print screen!~
So fun! =D hahas copy & send!!~ new skill!! good good... hahas...

So many stuffs to be done, no time.. scary... I sared I cant finish things on time...

So.....

2009-03-22T19:39:00.002+08:00

In the end, I didnt register for A lvls this yr...
What's the point of retaking if I hav no confidence I can do well on my own effort....
Sigh.. What lies ahead of me, is so uncertain now...
Did I make the right choice?
I dun know...
Will I make the same mistakes I made in my choices before?
I dun know...
So many uncertainties..
& I really dun know ='X

Really scared, yet, sort of looking forward to see what will lies in front of me...

WAVERING =X

2009-03-19T00:44:00.002+08:00

I know I shouldnt waver...
But as the day approaching,
I tend to afraid I made de wrong choice..
Sigh.. I apply early, but it wasnt ka-shu..
I just dun wan to think lots abt it..
But now.. sigh.. I actually think much abt it..
Till today I almost commit sucide by dashing across the road, wit 2 cars nearly hit me..
How dramatic..
Choices can change for NTU & NUS..
I think I alr changed my choice for 3 times..
Till now I almost forgotten my choices..
lalalalalala... I think I worry excessively..
船到桥头自然直。。。别岂人忧天。。。
Hope I can get in........

Decisions...

2009-03-09T01:08:00.002+08:00

Conclusion to my lousy results:
I will submit applications to unis, & register to retake..
If I am lucky enough to be admitted to any of the uni, I shuld consider whether I should retake or nt but then =) as stated behind the result slip there will be a refund=)
And Meanwhile, I shall recap & revise everything...
Most prob, retaking my H2s & my econs.. not sure abt gp...

And I have to do a portfolio, which I had no idea what should I do, draw for it...
If I need to have interviews, I hope I did well...
And I need to finish my aunt website real fast as I need time to study for the exams..
Need some serious determination & perserverance...
And I believe I can do it=) And no more wavering, no more distractions..
Clear direction, clear path... Hope I can do well these years..
I WILL start tomoro on maths book1 & some of book2.. Kumbateh to myself! =)

2009-03-03T13:46:00.002+08:00

Results coming out on fri march 6, 2.30pm...
Sigh.. scaryyyyyy...
no matter what, i have to face it..
sighhh......................................................................

wonder how HJ now in china... hmm...

Responsibility again..

2009-03-01T18:54:00.001+08:00

Sigh.. same goes for yst too.. 28/2...
=X responsibility is heavy...
cant go for hj farewell dinner n yst class girls' gathering =X

Responsibility

2009-02-27T21:49:00.002+08:00

Mood: LOUSY

Had anyone ever felt tt responsibility overwrite friendship before?
well.. for the first time, today, I felt tt..
I cant just simply push responsibility away & hav fun...
Furthermore, due to certain limitations, causes it more harder to meet..
Hearing the laughter at the other end of de phone, making me feel worse for nt bein there..
I want to be there but cant..
whatever, no one really cares...

2009-02-18T16:02:00.002+08:00

I sprained my ankle & leg I think..
Clumsy as usual...
I feeling anxiety as the day of release of results nearin...
I fear for the worst.. all failed.. =X
I think I wun dare to look at my results till I got home..
Wondering if I look at my result at sch, if its really bad, I may nt able to go home face my family...
Sigh.. Been hearing discussions nowadays on train tt ppl discuss which courses they plannin to go.. I feel Stressed as I haven even made up my mind & de outcome of results still unknown..
AHHH!!!!!!!!! =X fan ah..

Days pass real fast..

2009-02-04T12:05:00.002+08:00

When I was walkin to bus interchange frm home,
A sudden wave of inspiration hit me...
& I came out with this...

"Life is frail & short,
Its impt to live as beautifully & meaningfully as U want to,
As long u don't feel u are wasting ur life away,
There's no use of crying over spilled milk as things already happened & the only thing can one do is to get over with it & stand up strong & continue on with life without a moment to waste... "

Hahas.. I suddenly feel I am becoming more philosophical..
Boo.. wo bu yao nian... hahas.. I think de main message is myself telling myself nt to waste time...
I think I'm goin crazy... mayb is de 4 wisdom teeth growing out at the same time..
Or de recent nightmares... sigh.. stupid nightmares..
I didnt hav much nightmares in my 18th years of life...
& Now since 2009.. BOOM~
Every night confirm got one nightmare, which is totally unrelated to the stuffs I do or think duing day time..
Got dreamt of driving ard in graveyard, cant see ppl ard, saw only dark figures, many more
But mostly, I forgotten, which is gd for me.. only some are particularly deeply remember, cos it kept on repeatin & repeating...
I think I got used to theses nightmares, though its scary but I didnt scream/shout in the dream or reality even once...
My tolerance level really went up.. Admire myself for this.. lols.. kidding..

Things to be done:
- Get my laptop to be repair, still cant figure what wrong wit it..
- Get a job, being unemployed is torturing to me..
- Muz help aunt with her website first...
- Pass BTT & on to FTP & FTE & FTT & Practicals & Driving test =)
- Earn more $ for the fees...

Tanjong Pinang Trip

2009-01-31T01:15:00.012+08:00

Beginning ^^

The boarding boat pass =)

Leaving Sg...

On the way........

Reached in around 1hr45mins... went to buy some local goods than went to eat lunch @a restaurant.. Then went to see keropok being made.. After that, we went to here aft a long & bumpy ride.....

A beach =) sat thr in the hut above eatin coconut..
Enjoyment.. hahas.. coconut flesh v soft... wit cool sea breeze blowing in my face...

Another picture of de beach....

Another beach=)This beach is cleaner.. ate cake thr =)

Another picture of this beautiful beach=)

Waves =)

Waves approaching.... =)

Tada...! Hit my feet=) I love this feeling.. hahas

Look at the shore... those small huts are the locals built for others to sit thr & enjoy the sea..

& can buy stuffs/food frm their stalls i think.... hee =)

At a small hut..eating cakes wit family=)

After tt, we went to St Mary's statue built by the locals..

& a "jiu zhai gou" & a buddhist temple wit a large kuanyin statue=)

& Back to a hotel kelong...

Views outside the room...

This photo is taken when the tide is low...

This is low tide at sunset....

After resting, we ate BBQ dinner thr, & played wit fireworks at night =)

Sth like NDP kind of fireworks.. no kidding.. hahas.. so pretty & interesting...

v nice =D & some sang karoke thr....

This is taken in the morning the next day=)

Another picture...

Another view....

Another view... can see swallows flying around... =)

Another view....

Another view too...

View frm the inside of the hut...

Best view taken frm the hut.. hahas...

After that, we went to eat breakfast & nearby, got 3 temples tgt...

Some prayed, some watched...

Then, bad news happened...

No wonder my left eye twitched tt day in de morning.....

Limited boats goin sg... Cant leave.. & In de end, only 10 of us left...

Me, bro & pa & uncle & uncle fren & uncle mother left behind....

WE slept for along time & in de end, change to another hotel kelong....

Tada...!~ The hotel for de 2nd day...

The water thr is crystal clear... can see corals & seaweed... love it =))

View from the hut... The kelong is practically on the sea...

We living in one of those huts shown in e photo..

Outside the hut can just simply fish... Its quite deep...

Bridge are all wooden... Can see sea underneath.. hahas =)

An eagle thr =) soo cute.. its wun move away... cos its raised thr...

A big sea turtle... Also raised thr by the owner of de kelong...

Squirrel.. Also raised thr.. It was abt to attack me I think -.-''

View of a construction in progress...somewhere nearer to the entrance of de kelong...

Ever wonder how the interior look like?

TaDa!~ ^^ its quite clean.. cleaner than de first kelong we went..

Although is smaller.. less furnished... but its nicer for me than the first one... =)

& Its floor are tiles!!! Not Wood!!! Impressed...! Somemore got aircon!!~ ^^

The exterior... Outside each door got 2 chairs & a table for ppl to sit/look while fishin =)

Outside floor are wooden same as de bridge, walls & de rooptop...

This is at night..

View at night... dark~ can see lots of stars above... Love It!!~ hahas =)

Got many ppl put fireworks at night too~

Managed to get a phot of it.. hahas... its purple wit reddish orange..love fireworks!~ ^^

That night didnt sleep well.. horrible singing in de karoke room till midnight in sg times..

the time thr are 1 hr lag.. so ya.. its only 11 pm thr.. but to me its 12am...

In the morning.. Too much cloud blocking de sun..

Nvm.. de sea is still nice to me.. hahas.. =)

Some random photo... de orange is v small.. cute=)& its sweet too ^^

Another hut...

Fishing huts at the most far end of de kelong.. nearer to the deeper sea...

This food thr are nice=) try some new stuffs never eat before one... lik big white clams..

teaste lik scallops to me.. hahas..

After tt, we wet home ard 1130am.. Reached at 2.30pm cos of indo&sg time diff...

Overall, its been enjoyable except for the corrupted system...

2009-01-30T07:43:00.002+08:00

Back from Tanjong Pinang =)
Its an enjoyable trip thr apart frm boat problem & stuffs...
I was thr 3D2N instead of 2D1N...
cos thr were no boat seats back according to the tour guide...
Sigh.. but in de end 10ppl went back, 7ppl stayed..
Ma went back wit sis.. bought the tickets with extra price...
Wonder is it de boat company behind this black market or...?
Dun wanna think abt it.. Jus feel so corrupted thr..
Its supposed to be a 2 way tickets dun know why become like this...
O well.. But de scenery of de beach thr are nice=)
& I stayed in kelong =) shall upload de photos someday..
Now still cant upload cos my lappie still spoilt..
& I cant find de cable to connect my phone to the com...
Sigh.. I need to go repair it & my phone soon...
Will update on the trip soon=)

HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR~

2009-01-26T03:18:00.003+08:00

HAPPY CNY!!!!~ ^^

Wishing all ALL THE BEST!~
wan shi ru yi =)

I just realised I change for ma $ to rupiah is for tues goin to an island in indo for a day...
I think I'm been living in my own world for long till I dun know abt this..
Looking forward to it cos never travel to island frm boat frm s'pore..
=)
Hav a GREAT new year!~

2009-01-25T13:59:00.006+08:00

Its FINALLY over~ ^^
I'm so glad I persevere till de end...
hahas.. so happy tt yst when I promote to clear de last stock of peanut cookies..
first attempt sold it=) YaY!~ I muz hav become more eloquent.. lols.. mayb nt...
These few days it has been an eye-opener to me...
Really... I realise in this world gt lots of diff walks of ppl...

I really dun like some irritatin aunties & a particular uncle...
Got this irritatin aunty walked towards me, & kept on harping, "Green peas cookies v dry leh" for 5 mins+ then I kept on "No.. its nt, try it urself", then she said ," No, I dun wan to try.. Its dry.." & this hassle continue for a long time, she chases away so many customers... Grrrr....!~

& In the END, guess what she said???
She said," I didnt buy frm U guys de"...

I feel damn irritated.. If she wan complain, shouldn she complain to de one she bought frm..????
Irritating... chasin away customers...

What's the world becomin into?

Another case... 3 irritating aunties walked past & tasted.. & they said they homemade better than this.. & they even ask me to ask them to be their suppliers.. Of course, I didnt ask..
Then they gave disgusted looks & carried on degradin pineapple tarts in front of numerous customers.. KNS.. oops.. wasnt supposed to say this..
AH!!! They chased away customers...
& Seriously, my aunt's bakery handmade pineapple tarts are NICE to me....
If nt, ppl wun buy, right? =)
I was wonderin... If they are so capable & their tarts are really superb, why dun they open their own bakery shop... If they are so superb, they should be able to convince ppl to invest wit them.. They are Damn irritating...
They are really the typical kind of "Aunties"... Grrr...!

Too much cases... =X Hate to smile when ppl are irritating u & even more when my legs are hurting with it..
I really believed I got higher level of tolerance..
Good Training... lols =)
Now I look at the world at a bigger picture..
Not everyone is a kind soul...
& I am glad so far the majority ppl I met are kind souls...
Got this kind lady bought cookies frm our kiosk & gave to the performers frm china, who are performing at J8... She is really kind... =)

Overall, with these few days.. I am glad tt I think my tolerance level increases wit endurance level... hahas.. aft all, its long workin hours...

Now, aft cny, most prob help last aunt wit website & aft tt, go find new job..+ retake btt on 25Feb... So envy sh & wz can drive now... Sigh.. Blame on my itchy hands...

MY HAPPY WORK EXPERIENCE

I am glad to know 2 frenz when helpin out at J8 kiosk..
There is this girl frm NJ called Jia Min.. quite tall.. Cheerful & sociable... Thank goodness she's thr... if nt it will b boring for me to promote...
Always joke ard =) even neighbourin promoters love to hav her ard..
I am nt tt sociable to neighbourin promoters though.. but I got smile & greet =)
We will talk abt some irritating customers & stuffs...
& Another is a mother for 3 kids frm malaysia.. she seriously dun look like 30yrs old..
Thot she was 22-25 years old... gosh.. hahas... we called her Ah Zhi =)
Sociable too =) Its been a valuable experience to me~
At least for now, I can talk to strangers.. hm.. sounds wrong.. hahas..
But it felt great when thoses I talked to buy the products..
Job is tiring but there is an air of self-fulfilment to me when products are sold..
hahas.. =) will keep this memory in my heart..
I wonder when will I return to bishan agn..

Pardon me.. hahas.. once again, photo ruined by me.. sry abt tt..

Once again, An unfamiliar place becoming familiar to me...
Same goes for clementi & jurong west area.. =)

2009-01-19T14:17:00.003+08:00

TireD!~
12hrs standing, 8hrs sleep, 2hrs transport..
I only left 2hrs per day to eat, bathe...
It had been ages since I update here...
left 1 more week.. I sure can persevere tt..
Dun wanna be part of strawberry culture...
I shall persevere =D

After tt, shall help out doin website at aunt office..
Hope to do a much better job... my first attempt on it is nt tt well done..
After tt... find job...
& thr come de fact of de release of results... =X
I hope I wun get back it..
I gt a bad feelin over it ='(
Hope its gonna be alright..

Wonder why I today can type this post?
Cause I'm sick today =X argh~
muz b stupid constipation cause this stupid stomache...
sigh... btw I fail my btt =(
study for it, yet fail, cause of itchy hands of changin answers at last min..
If nt, I will pass.. now is another waste of $, angry...

Tt's all so far...
O ya.. I finished breaking dawn...
It's a nice ending=)
On to thousands of splendid suns & then, marley&me...

2009-01-06T22:49:00.003+08:00

Hi ALL =)
I am currently helping out at my aunt's bakery (Garden) kiosks till 24, selling cny goods...
Handmade ones =) no preservatives...
There are kiosks at taka, rafflesplace, jurong point, junction8 & century square..
Hee.. can try=) currently have 10% discount for the cookies..

hee.. I jus had a nosebleed, I was lookin at the computer screen & I felt sth liquid flow down & I saw blood~ gosh.. but I am so sure I am not heaty because my tongue wasn't swollen...
O well.. bro made a joke out of it, said that, luckily I never bleed when selling cookies..
Thinkin of it, it sounds gross.. I wonder if I can persevere tt long...
& BTT coming!!!~ I need to STUDY!~
& I wan to finish breaking dawn!~
XD

A BRAND NEW YEAR!~

2009-01-02T02:56:00.001+08:00

A Brand New Year!~
A new start^^

My New year resoultions?
- Gain some guts... hahas.. got easily scared by scary pics & movies.. phobia of supernaturals?
- Get rid of phobias
- Keep in touch wit frenz
- Learn cycling
- Hav my driving license
- Learn some cooking... better nt burn down kitchen..
- Hav a job earn $
- Read books ^^
- Be a responsible & gd sister, daughter... hard.. but muz try...
- Try writin things now & thr.. scared of losin ability to write words/chinese characters...
- More organised planning
- Be more vegetarian..
- Dun let sth pull my mood down~ no one can pull it down unless I let them so...
- Be Happy ^^

New Year Wishes?
- Only one: I wan to go Uni...
& two: I will smile when I got my result...
hopefully...

2009 will be a HAPPY Year!~ ^^
cos I shall remain positive..
hahas.. & last but nt least, I wish ALL will have a HAPPY & GREAT Year Ahead!~
hohoho~ hahas... I am nt Santa Claus, I am Sabina Au Yong.. yea..
jus lame-ing~ ^^

2008-12-29T13:16:00.000+08:00

When something major happen to one...
there is not much for the ppl surroundin him/her to do to change the situation...
the ONLY one that can change it, is the person who experiences it...

Ppl around can only give advices, encouragement & lend a listening ear..
To change the situation depends entirely on how the person in the situation, views & reacts...
Ppl around can only help the person in difficulties to vent out his/her feelings...
However, the choice of ventin feelings out depends entirely on the person who experiences difficulty...

So, in conclusion, to turn everything ard...
The person who involves with everything is the KEY to solve everything
& the ppl ard could support the person...
Both parties have diff. parts of roles to play..
But the Most impt role is the person involved as it generates the final decision~

hahas.. sounds lik a project leader to me..
If difficulty arises, ppl should raise & encountered them..

After all,

What's life without difficulties?~ ^^

27 Dec

2008-12-27T21:51:00.001+08:00

Mood: Happy =D.. yet guilty =X

HAPPY Baking DAY~
=D hahas.. <3 de cookies today but agar agar.. too swt & liquid.. Really feel lik baby food.. hahas...

2008-12-24T14:50:00.001+08:00

A new start =D

MERRY X'mas eve!~ ^^ hohoho...
hahas..